I kid, I kid. Well, yes, pixiesticks.org is a slow as molasses site, that part is true. I mean, I am not foolish. I know that the real action is over on shotalicious.org. And that’s fine. Just as long as this place still contains some semblance of being my personal private place on the internets. It’s where I have a lot of history. Working on ten years worth actually. That’s a shit load of time outside the internet. On it, well, that’s even more significant.

DragonCon is coming up in just a few days. I do not believe I’ll be encountering Travis, but never say never. He’s not mentioned coming. In fact, he’s mentioned several months ago he was NOT coming. That’s okay with me. I don’t have to have that kind of situation happen every year.

Especially since I seem to be having a second chance with Mik possibly. We’ve talked several times since that Saturday I spent the entire evening with him by surprise at Heretic. We’ve talked quite a bit about who we are now and not so much about who we were then which is all the better. I’d love to not say “second chance” but instead say new opportunity.

I don’t know what to make of Con this year to be honest. I don’t have long hair, so my Atreyu outfit is not happening. I’ve gone without cosplay before. But it does make it more fun. I also still don’t smoke, so this will be my second year going without doing that. It’s always interesting since that’s something very particular to Con.

I play Magic now. So that’ll be a new activity that I can really get into. In fact, that may be what I do the most of this year. Though there are several panels I definitely want to take in. Lots of Star Trek: New Gen. Got some MST3K stuff. There’s even a Quantum Leap one.

However, something I absolutely positively cannot miss is Mythbuster Adam Savage.

I’d also like to take in the True Blood panels and maybe even get a second crack at The Weasley Twins.

It should be an interesting year. If anyone is going to be going, or even if you aren’t, follow shotalicious on Twitter and let’s see what trouble we can get into together.

The person who bought Freakshow was Mik. You may remember him. I know I certainly do. I dated him a period of time back in whatever year it was a long time ago. (I could look it up. I’m sure I have entries about him on pixiesticks. But maybe re-reading them would be a bad idea.) The most recent time I’ve seen this Thai beauty is over a year ago at the Asian Express pool party Kaze DJed. Unlike that time though, I didn’t exchange awkward friendly small talk with him. No, I was feeling a lot more ballsy and figured that I should do what I really want and that was to talk more in depth.

And we did.

We ended up spending the entire time we were there together, talking about growing up, and how time and circumstance changes people even if the core of the person doesn’t change that much. Really good philosophical and cultural and, yes, even sexual topics. It was really remarkable in that I felt like we communicated better in those short hours more than we ever did when we were going out.

Part of that is my fault. While I was overall a complete fucking moron for breaking things off with him in the first place, I also was in a area of life where I was very much into the roles people played in a relationship. It wasn’t very healthy.
Part of that was his fault. Though it also kind of wasn’t. He hadn’t been in America for very long when he crossed my path, so communication and the whole gay concept was kind of fresh to him. One of the things he said last night, is he’s been spending some time finding himself. I think he’s done a pretty good job of that as he really seemed a bigger person than before.

Do I have any hope for what I asked for as the night ended? I don’t know. I naturally asked if maybe we could get together and see what could turn out happening now that we’ve both grown up some more. It was very interesting that he said that I shouldn’t look at it like a possible second chance. That the past is not important when too many things have changed to make for a future.

He did get my number and he did spend the entire evening hanging out with me. (And he bought a book.) We have a buzzing chemistry I think. But I will have to wait for him to decide. Which is as it should be.

I got my hair cut all off today. Well, not all, but considering how much I’ve sported for quite sometime, it’s pretty much considered all. No more dyed blond areas remain. My only question really is why is my face so red? I’m not shy or embarrassed. Maybe it’s from the hot as blazes sun that keeps pouring down on me.

I do know that yesterday I began plotting what I ate in a food diary. If it sounds a little gay, it probably is. But essentially you figure out all what you ate and how good or bad you ended up on main items like calories, fat, sodium, and stuff like that. Considering I’m nearing 32 years old and don’t have any health care, I probably need to be doing some watching of what I’m eating. I’m adding a bit of exercise to the whole thing too. But don’t call it a diet program. (And don’t call it a mid-life crisis either.)

In other news: Courtney (Elf) still looks fucking hot, DJ Rick Walsh is retiring from his duties behind the turntables at Heretic on Friday, and I’m really getting back into this Magic: The Gathering hobby again. I also still RP with Stephanie, play a few video games, and am looking forward to a jam packed fall season that includes DragonCon, Alchemy, my birthday, Atlanta Gay Pride Weekend, Halloween, and writing a new novel.

I still could find time for a boyfriend though. Any takers?

They claim they boosted the signal. But, of course, they really haven’t. It’s just the same revolving door of double speak.

I’m getting the same run-around with Ebay. A while back I listed something that didn’t sell. Instead of instantly refunding my 6.15 they kept it. I didn’t think too much of it at first, but as I kept getting invoices that said I had -6.15 balance, I thought, it sure would be nice to have that money back. I wrote them, they said sure, attach a PayPal account and we’ll get right on that. 30 days went by, no refund. I wrote them back saying what’s the deal yo? They said, oh so sorry, but we need a credit card number or bank account number. I said, no, you told me you need a PayPal account attached. They replied, okay sure, we’ll get right on that. 30 days went by, no refund.

Customer No Service.

I’ve added to the NAVI section a link to my new blog over on Wizards of the Coast’s website. It will be where I detail my return to playing of the game. Will it be a success or an unmitigated disaster? Who knows, but it sure will probably be fun to watch the carnage.

It’s July! JULY! You know, that month that brings America independence, fireworks, BBQ, and afternoon and evening thunderstorms. It also means we’re about 6 weeks away from BP possibly finally maybe probably not cutting off their massive oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico. Hurrah! Wait, whut?

The summertime song is allegedly destined to be “California Gurls” by Katy Perry featuring Ludacris. But you know, I’m more particular to Kat DeLuna’s “Push, Push” (featuring Akon, cause you know everything features someone.) And then there is that patently silly “Pretty Boy Swag” by Soulja Boy. Wait, he’s a pretty boy? Oh… wait.. no… he says “no homo” in the song. Psha! Like us respectful fags would accept you, assclown.

On to more important news: The economy seems to still blow for most, but thankfully my local economy is really picking up some steam. I’m trying very hard to adjust and make sure I’m putting some away now that I’m not spending so much on things like car payments and full coverage insurance. I could use some health care, god knows. And I don’t mean the kind that comes in a cocktail glass.

Pride Weekend is once again moving in Atlanta. We didn’t have it in June -again- which blows donkey balls. Last year, it was on Halloween which apparently worked out really well. I just went to the parade which was cold but nice as always. The Latinos looked like they were celebrating the hardest. The rest of us should look to that and be reminded what it’s like to have some real fire in our pride. This year Atlanta Gay Pride is on my birthday weekend, October 9th.

But before that happens, I gotta do the Alchemy thing with Kaze up in the North Georgia Mountain. It’s kind of like Burning Man, but on a smaller scale.

Also coming up is another fine edition of DragonCon. It’s Labor Day Weeekend, always, always, always. Maybe you should come and join me. It’s a lot of fun, the most accessible geek celebrities, and will make you rethink that whole “nerds don’t get laid” stuff.

Finally, I’ve been thinking a lot about Magic: The Gathering again suddenly. I bought a terrible terrible version of it on Steam the other day called Duels of the Planeswalkers. It’s also on XBOX. It’s horrid. Don’t buy it. It was a waste of money to be sure. You can’t even build your own deck? WHAT? Magic: Online is cheaper and certainly is making me think about it a bit. There’s also a new Core set coming out in two weeks. Is this something I could get into again? If it’s still played, maybe I could even make some new friends. I’d chalk this nostalgia up to the fact that I’m 31 (almost 32), but that would imply that I’ve grown up in the meantime, which we all fucking know is not true.

Anyway, that’s the update for now. Don’t forget to buy some books.

2. Oil Spill. OMFG, is that shit still going on? You know, when I made my first Facebook post about that, it was already two weeks old. Now it’s more than two MONTHS old. Beaches are getting trashed, lives are being devastated, and it’s become quite the nightmare environmental scenario. Worse, the relief wells are still not due to be complete for over another month and you know, I am not all that confident that’ll fix things either. This situation cannot be minimized. It really is THE most important thing in America right now. It practically screams what’s wrong with our government, our industry, and our energy policy what with all the corruption and inaction across the board.

3. Afghan War. A big time general got kicked out because he said lots of negative things about those in charge in an article published in Rolling Stone. First, Rolling Stone still exists? Secondly, I want to know why we’re still in Afghanistan. It ain’t to fight Al Qeada like was originally planned. They’ve moved on to Pakistan. Is it to fight the Taliban? Is it to fight people that only fight us because we’re there fighting them fighting us? I thought I elected Obama to get us out of these wars. Wait, that brings me to…

4. President Obama. He hasn’t closed down Gitmo. He hasn’t brought home our troops. He hasn’t really done a very good job at bringing our economy back. He kept many of the Bush era policies of warrant-less wiretapping and secret prisons. He’s half-assed the repeal of Don’t Ask Don’t Tell. He’s half-assed nominated liberalish people to the Supreme Court. I’m going to say what many of my liberal friends won’t… he’s not been an effective leader. Yes, I know it’s only been such and such many months. Yes, I know he inherited many problems. But he’s had plenty of time to suck on his own. He completely has bungled the Oil Spill. He continues to not be a good leader in economic policies that reform the way things are done. Handing out cash isn’t a solution. His one big win of Health Care isn’t even really that impressive considering it lacks a Public Option and the implementation of the effects are all way diluted with time. He has squandered a majority in the house and senate and now with mid-term elections looming, under his leadership or lack thereof, there are overwhelming predictions that Republicans (and even more terrifying Tea Party members) are going to be roaring back. Son, I am disappoint.

5. “Later, Skater: On Tour!” Buy your copy for summer reading today. Sales haven’t been great, which is confusing me. I mean, I sold and gave away lots and lots of copies of the original “Later, Skater” The sequel is bigger and better and downloadable for instant gratification for only 5 dollars. FIVE DOLLARS! Get it today to help keep me encouraged about my writing.

I don’t have much of a life. That’s the sad thing. I guess I do what most people my age do. Work. Sleep. Shit. And move on from day to day. But that’s not really a very rewarding existence is it? Of course, many people my age are married, divorced, involved in relationships, taking care of children, or whatever. I’m doing none of those things, so it’s a bit more empty.

I did pay off my car this past week. That’s kind of a big deal since it frees up a consider chunk of money I make every month. I mean, if you subtract a car payment and the cost of paying for full coverage insurance, that’s some serious chizz.

In other news: I worry about my nightclub hang out. It’s suffered from strong declines of people. More in the last month than had already declined in general since the start of The Great Depression part Deux. I still enjoy going for the most part. I mean, interactions with other people that aren’t my family and work and customers are probably a good thing for my fragile sanity. I could really use some friends outside of that place though. I only see Kaze rarely. I only see Elf rarely.

My world outside of the digital seems to get smaller and smaller. I fear it may one day disappear.

I was honored to be asked to write a quiz for AVATAR for the very awesome site How Well Do You Know.
I took my time and really tried to make it my best. Take it (along with my other three quizzes) tonight! Tell me what you think.

Sadly, I have to take down shotalicious until I get a better idea of what the fuck is going on and what to do about it. I can’t allow my site to be used to infect people’s computers with malware or viruses.

While shotalcious was still pretty fresh from a recent reboot, this site has legacy behind it going back far longer than it really has any good reason to. I’ll try to keep on going, with backups or what not. But I certainly am facing the reality that because of faith I put in other companies, I could end up losing everything.

Overnight a branch fell onto my car causing several dents on the roof and door. It further cracked the windshield. Unfortunately, with a 500 dollar deductible, it doesn’t look like it’s shaping up to being worth fixing these annoying but cosmetic problems. I guess Mother Nature is getting me back for allowing kidrockboyfriend to burn all that trash the other day.

The car is so very nearly paid for too. It needs to tough it out!